Dear....anybody?

I really need to get my priorities straight. I feel as though things are kind of blurred and meshed together and they aren't really making much sense anymore. Everything and everyone else around me seem to be changing while I lag further and further behind, and that distance between myself and the rest of the world seems to be getting greater. There are things that I am doing wrong, and the worst part is not the fact that I'm doing it, but rather the dreaded fact that I seem to be witnessing myself from the third-person point of view as I'm doing it without my hands up to try and stop myself from continuing. And it is only now that I am beginning to see just how deep the hole I've been digging myself is getting. Consequentially, of course. I'm just praying that God gives me the strength that I know I've had all along to learn to hold myself back, and to learn to put some restraint on a lot of my actions. And most of all, I pray that Myles continues to have faith in me and in us.